I Have Four Children

This was written in early July but I was not going to post it. Since receiving permission from my aunt, I’ve decide to post it.


I Have Four Children

My sweet aunt, who also had a son die when he was 14, sent me a  note in the mail:

“Today, thinking about that question that passes freely between folks meeting – ‘Do you have any children?’ A simple question. Never a problem before. Easy. I say, ‘Yes,’ But what to say to how many? ‘Five,’ my hard headed mind says. Heart always says, ‘Six. One is dead.’ Must I only say five? Absolutely not! I have six children – five sons and one daughter. Forever, always!”

After reading that, I stood up, alone in my living room and announced to the heavens, with fierce emotion, “I have FOUR Children!!!”

I will always have four children whether they are here with me or not. I will NEVER tell anyone three. Why do I need to leave Ashton out just because he’s not here right now? I have to remember, choosing that route could bring tears. Is that OK? Yes……I’m Ok with that. I’m used to tears.

Thank you Aunt Taffy for helping me make that decision.